Nekoda Mattox Photography

Invisible Mothers

Black and white portrait of myself, a white mom with a short pixie cut in pajamas, holding my mixed nine month old daughter who is wearing a zebra print onsie.

My second child, my little girl, came into the world on April 2, 2021. I have taken easily 2,000 images just of my family since she was born. Scrolling through my phone and camera images, there are so many incredible moments that were captured. But - I’m missing from almost all of them. With my baby came new insecurities about my appearance, lots of bleary eyed no sleep days, days covered in baby spit up, and days where even just jumping in the shower was a triumph. There were so many days with so many reasons to avoid being in front of the camera.

My three year old son is already starting to look for me in photos with baby him. Someday, my daughter will, too. However we look, we are incredible and not only deserve to be celebrated in photos - but also absolutely should be. To stand by my words, I’m putting up a photo at night, in my pajamas, with me and baby girl. I am not going to be an invisible mom in the pictures she looks back on.

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